Breaking Point..

Hakim if you want to leave everything about what you said on your blog. Fine. I don't care anymore. You keep saying that I annoy people with the Tocarra thing. Its my personality. If they have a problem with it, I don't give a fucking freaking damn. And I was joking when I called you anorexic. When I first saw you, the thought of you being anorexic never even crossed my mind. So stop being so paranoid over it. If you don't believe me, go and ask people. You were the first one who brought up the anorexia thing not me. And I agree that the whole me calling you ‘Amy’ thing is not nice, and so I stopped it. I have no idea why the hell you’re obsessing over your weight. I should be the one doing that. Why do you give a damn about what people think. I don’t, and its working pretty well for me.

You think my life is so perfect. Well, its not. I broke during Maths class because I couldn’t control it anymore. I tried so hard to keep it in, but the thought of you saying that I couldn’t study hurt so much that it came out by itself. At least you have a room to cry in Hakim. I don’t. Privacy is non-existent in my house. I have to keep my bloody door open 24 hours a day seven days a week. And what is so wrong with your life. I have to come home everyday with a whole big fucking mess waiting for me to clean it up. And by the time I’m done, my parents are messing up the house again. I try so hard to keep the house clean that I don’t have time for myself. I barely have time to study or do anything else. You, on the other hand, have the time to study. Your mother does the chores, and when you come home, all you have to worry about is yourself. I should be the one whose envious here. Not you. At least you can study. I can see nothing in my future but a mop and a bucket.

You’ve been complaining and complaining about everything in school nowadays. You see something, you complain about it. You complain about Yuhanis not saying hi to you, you complain about people who are making noise in the canteen, you complain about everything. To tell you the truth, after a while, it gets really annoying. Remember the message to Adam saying my photo shoot was cheap? How do I know that you don’t bitch about me behind my back. If you can tell him that, you can easily bitch on and on about me. I feel like I don’t know you anymore. When you were in Sec 2, you were one of the nicest people I knew. You have changed so much that I barely even know you anymore. So is this you now, or was that you in Sec 2. Because frankly, I don’t really like what I see in front of me.

Legally Blind..

Omg I woke up today and my eye was all red and swollen. My father got this eye infection yesterday and he passed it on to me. Its really contagious. I just slept on my parent's bed for like half and hour and I got the infection. I hope I don't go legally blind like Amanda from ANTM 3. I love Amanda. Every episode I watch her I love her more and more. She's so blind yet so beautiful. She's really soft-spoken too. Who am I kidding. I can never meet Amanda. She's on the other side of the world.

I'm actually studying now. I started A-Maths yesterday and I kind of understand Trigonometry. Hakim said that I was dumb and that I couldn't study. Hakim, I am not dumb, so stop bitching around and saying that I am. Its really insulting. Here are my most favourite pictures of Amanda.

Amanda's Beauty Shot.

Amanda's Covergirl Shot.

Amanda's Dooney & Bourke Shot.

Amanda's Japanime Shot.

Okay I gotta go now. Bye.

The Fatigue..

Omg today is so so tiring. I feel like dying. Even watching ANTM is a drag. I had to screw my eyes open and pretend to be awake throughout lessons when I was so freakin sleepy. Today's entry is going to be short. I need sleep or I might just collapse like Rebecca.

Hakim pissed off almost all the girls who did the Seven Deadly Sins photoshoot at my house on Friday. He called it cheap and dumb, and I was pissed at first but I sucked it in after a while. Nafisah blew up and she was like taunting Hakim at recess and she was saying over and over again, "Do you have a problem with me?". Alia was on Nafisah's side too, and I think they both hate Hakim now. Sarah couldn't care less about what Hakim said. Well, people love conflicts.

On Saturday I had to do the Kallaing River Clean-Up with my class for CIP, and it was gross, but fun. We spent two hours picking up trash, and another our doing our own thing. I took photos using Marlisa's camera. I did a pose like Verragio Spider Brooch, but instead I did it with a wooden bracelet. Here are the photos.

The Clean-Up Photoshoot

Verragio Wooden Bracelet. Fierce.

Amanda's Verragio Spider Brooch photo.

Me protecting Liana from the camera. Omg its obscene. I didn't really touch her though.

Bad Attitude vs. the Lust Machine. Yuck my hand looks distorted at the back.

Me doing Lust to Marlisa. She looks shocked.

Okay I gotta go and sleep now. Bye.

The Three Deadly Models..

Omg I just did the Seven Deadly Sins photoshoot with Alia, Nafisah, and Sarah and it was so fun!! Actually it was all a last minute plan. I asked Nafisah if she wanted to do the shoot like half an hour before school ended, and she agreed immediately. They all went to Alia's house to get their costumes ready while I went to mosque to pray. Then we met at my house and it became a hectic studio. I was doing Alia's hair and Nafisah and Sarah were like putting on make-up, and there were hair products everywhere. Nafisah was like putting on five pounds of powder for her Pride shot, and it was really funny. I desperately ran around the house looking for trophys for her shot. For Sarah's Greed shot, she rubbed real American notes on her face. Alia had to pose with real oranges and apples for the Gluttony shot. They were all so worried about their thighs showing in the shots so I had to edit them out. It was hilarious.

Alia did three of the sins, Pride, Gluttony, and Sloth. Sarah did Greed and Envy. Nafisah did Pride and Lust. And I had to direct them so that they would pose like the actual shot. Here are the photos.

America's Next Top Model

Alia as Gluttony.

Naf as Pride.

Sarah as Greed.

Alia as Wrath.

Nafisah as Lust.

Sarah as Envy.

Alia as Sloth.

Okay I gotta go now. Anyway thank you Sarah, Naf, and Alia for doing the shoot!! It was fun!! Bye.

The Seven Deadly Sins..

Omg ANTM yesterday was so cool!! I love ANTM. No, I'm addicted to ANTM. Yesterday the girls had to do a photoshoot where they had to pose as the Seven Deadly Sins, and it was so freaky yet so cool. The girls were lowered in a coffin into an eight-foot deep hole and they had to pose as their sin. My favorite was of course Wrath which was done by the ever so sweet Kahlen. She was like growling at the camera during the shot, and my mother thought she was crazy. Then there was Christina, who had to do Lust. She was making obscene sounds during the shot to get in the mood, and when my mother heard them, she looked so shocked. She wanted to shut the TV off when she saw Naima posing with nothing on but a green cloth. Good thing I hid the remote.

I so want to do the Seven Deadly Sins photoshoot. I asked Alia if she was up for it, and she said okay. I want to do the sin, Greed. I’m gonna put money all over the floor and pose like Tatiana with all the dollar notes. During PE today, we had to do crunches and everyone had to lie on the floor. When everybody got up and started to walk around, I remained lying on the floor and did one of the Seven Deadly Sins, Envy. Everyone thought I was crazy but I didn’t care. Screw all those bitches. Just kidding. Omg I’m vulgar. Here are the pictures.

Kahlen as Wrath. My favourite sin.

Christina as Lust. The sounds she made during the shoot shocked my mother.

Tatiana as Greed. I'm gonna do her shot. Its so fun.

Okay those were my three most favourite shots. I gotta go sleep now. Bye.

Got Camera?..

Omg I just came back from holiday and I still feel so tired. Actually it wasn’t really a holiday, it was more of a shopping trip overseas. I bought lots of stuff like shoes and clothes. My mother said that I could only buy stuff in Bangkok and not in Singapore because of the ever so high prices. During the holiday, I spent three-quarters of the day shopping and the remaining time was used for sleeping. I barely ate because I was too busy getting retail therapy. I hope I lost weight. Yay.

When my parents went out for massage and ditched me and my brothers in the hotel room, I did the Got Milk? photoshoot with my baby brother, and it was really so much fun!! Instead of Got Milk?, I did Got Camera? instead because I had to take photo of myself using a mirror. I looked a little like Tatiana in the shoot. Here are the pictures.

Got Camera? Photoshoot

Got Camera? Omg what a coincidence. There was a chair behind me, just like the actual shot!!

Tatiana's Got Milk? Photo.

Okay I gotta go do homework now. Bye.

Holiday Blues..

Omg I'm going on holiday in like 6 hours and my parents aren't even home yet. That's so freaky. On previous holiday trips, my mother would be at home checking every luggage bag and making that she brings all her outfits. But today, she hasn't even packed her luggage. I'm starting to think that this holiday is a hoax. I so don't feel like going. I wanna watch my precious ANTM tonight, where Tyra would be screaming at Tiffany for being a stupid bitch. I also have to study for exams, which are only a month away. I'm angry.

Hakim said that he found the ANTM 3 full season discs on Yahoo! Auctions, and he wants to split with me and some other people to buy it. Its nice and all, but I hope people won't be fighting over it. Who knows someone might say, "Never in my life have I yelled at a girl like this!!", and there'll be fighting and people might throw beer bottles at each other. It's gonna be so much fun!! I could bring a video recorder and create a new season of ANTM.

I asked my father yesterday if I could buy the ANTM cap online, and he said that I had to ask my mother. I just know my mother wouldn't approve. She's against online shopping. I gotta go pack for holiday now. Bye for another 4 days.